Friday, February 18, 2011

Day 50- 25 sleeps to Vegas and mission head straight

Hello my friends,

I kept waking up every few hours last night so did not have a restful sleep. At 6am I woke up with the beginning of a headache so I got up popped an advil and went back to bed. At that point I turned my alarm off and let my body decide when it wanted to wake up. I then fell into a more restful sleep and when I woke up the sun was up and there was no way I was going to make it to the step class. I've had a few sneezes lately and I want to focus on rest as my co-worker heads to Florida at the end of the week and I'll be flying solo at work I want to be 100%

Got a call from Capitol One telling me my card was flagged for fraud. Apparently it has been duplicated and then used at a Victoria Secret in the US for over $500...great. The fantastic thing is they flagged it and I'm not responsible for the charges but it makes me mad that these people will just strike again with someone else.

I focused on implementing plan B exercise wise and I dug out my step and did 40min and then a few hours later I did 40min of yoga - that felt incredibly good as I felt strong even though it's been awhile since I had a practice. I so need to change that.

I knew I was going out tonight and that already had me thinking about if I should be going to weigh in tomorrow. This week as been an emotional roller coaster for me and while the beginning of the week started well the last half was hell. The purpose of the evening was for us to get together and vent/ de-stress about the drama of the past week.

We went to a pub pretty close to my house and I opted to just enjoy myself as opposed to stress about weigh in tomorrow when the deep fried pickles hit the table. I will see a gain tomorrow and I'm going to skip the meeting. I know many of you will be thinking that's it's o.k to go anyway as it's just a blip. I don't want the number written in my tracker based on the meal before weigh in. I have acknowledged my behaviour over the last part of this week and realize I have work to do on the emotional eating issue. I want to move forward in a positive way and for me that means skipping the weigh in tomorrow. I want a restart tomorrow.

I need to embrace this new plan and re-align my focus 100%. The looming trip to Vegas will help, especially as time is running out. The bigger motivator is my next physical appointment in 84 days. I can hit goal by then I just need my head straight. I've made feeble attempts at this the last few weeks but that needs to change.

So tomorrow it's mission head straight. I need to plan not just the food but the exercise as well. While site makes that a little difficult it's manageable food wise and exercise wise I just need to have a few options depending on how busy the gym is. The other part of the mission is focusing on why I want to do this and why it's important to me, when it comes down to it this is the really important part. I need to anchor myself.

I want to go into next week's weigh in knowing I gave it all I got and start this journey rolling in the right direction. This means better accountability to myself.

I hope you all had a great Friday.


1 comment:

Carol said...

My leader has always said when you have a bad week and know you're up, then that's when you need your meeting. And when you've had a great week and you know you're down...that's when your meeting needs you!