Le sigh

My heavy week of travel did not go well. Workout clothes were packed and never left the suitcase. Tracking never happened after Monday morning. There were a ton of meals out.

This whole not knowing what my next role is seriously bugging me as I spent two days with my replacement. I was at an HR training and now some other Advisors so they were asking when I was coming back to Calgary and shared my confusion about not knowing where I'd go. Plus this week I had to terminate someone and then go into 2 days of training that requires participation. I'm shy and don't like to sound stupid so the training situation stressed me out a little.

So my food decisions were off, and my coffee intake was up. I stepped on the scale when I got home and the number shocked me. It showed me I need structure and accountability.

I went for 4 miles around the neighbourhood to shake off the negativity and focus on positivity and planning next week.

I did start re-reading Shrink Yourself and going through it slower this time around.

I do really like this book as it delves more into why you do the things you do, like go completely off plan do to feeling stressed.

Today I watched Biggest Loser and a few contestants resonated with me. Strangely enough it was Gina, I don't have total melt downs like she does and she strikes me as high maintenance but when she was in that coffin saying I don't want to die and I have a second chance that hit home.

I still have a second chance, or third or forth or fifth or so on. It makes me think how the majority of my WW meeting has people who rejoined for a 2nd or 3rd time.

That's the essence of the human spirit - perseverance.

I ordered the Aria scale and it arrived today.

It syncs with FitBit and the app. It also measures body fat which I haven't tracked in quite some time.

Funnily enough this week I start a new tracker and I think I'll ask for a new weigh in book tomorrow. A clean start.

The Progress not Perfection challenge restarted, that's the tracking challenge run by the fabulous @IrishEyes1982 and you can see it on twitter under #PNPtrackstar. You don't need to be on WW to join either.

So I'm dusting myself off and going back to basics. I control what I do and I want to be healthy.

Hugs!!!