Wednesday, November 05, 2014

You - version 2

Well Hello,

This time I didn't wait months between blog posts…yeah me.

I leave for the Wine & Dine Half in tomorrow and then the following weekend it’s the Avengers Half…and the 5ks for each run on top of that.

I can't say my training has been spectacular. When I signed up for these races I had grand plans. 

Then my world got tilted when I started a new job with crazy hours. It’s not odd for me to put in 9-10hrs per day. The last time I worked those kind of hours I was at site and got Fridays off, this time there’s an added 9-10hrs on the Friday.

I realize this is an excuse as people with far more complicated schedules can maintain training plans. There’s not a lot I can do now other than do the best I can. When I came back from Tower of Terror I had the flu so between that and Vancouver I ran once. Yet I shaved a few minutes off my last half.

The body is a mysterious machine indeed.

What I wanted to talk about today was my last Weight Watchers meeting. The topic was You version 2.

Sort of profound hey?

During the meeting my leader has us visualize during some scenarios as us version 2. What I found interesting is how easily I could visualize the right behaviors yet currently my actions don’t reflect that.

A few weeks ago we celebrated one of our WW family hitting goal. I was so happy for her and at the same time wondering what my issue is.

My Dad’s death hit me super hard so that impacted my whole life. I delayed dealing with my grief until I had a few things sorted. It’s been over a year and while substantially better I feel like about 98% myself.

Me version 2 starts now, I will track while I’m in Disney World and Disneyland – not something I typically do. When I come home I will start strength training so I can be more prepared for Star Wars and plan my food better.

The fact that I could visualize it means I can do it.

My bad habit is acting before thinking, like today I bought the Nanaimo bar at Starbucks. Now after two bites I realized it was kind of yucky and tasted like flour so I tossed it. Yet why did I buy it. I didn't need it and it turns out it wasn't even enjoyable.

I’ve read book after book.  I know what to do and just need to do it. I do have strong motivation in my annual physical in January not to mention the goal to do Dopey 14 months from now.

What I often hear in meetings is people want to get back to how they used to be. For me I've always been chubby from as far back as I can remember. Back when I lost 25lbs on WW then freaked out and gained it back. The freak out was I didn't know who this was, it was foreign and uncomfortable. Well since then I've done more uncomfortable things like going to Japan by myself that I know uncomfortable isn't a bad thing and you actually learn a lot about yourself.

I am worth success, I am worth the effort to be fit and I am worth the work that needs to be put in.

This blog is going to get back to its original intent to document the good, the bad and the ugly of getting to goal. 


Jessica said...

Sounds like you are motivated and that is part of the battle! Have a good weekend.

Sonya @ Eyes on the Hourglass said...

Minding the mindset at times can be difficult. I've struggled with it for years, but you got that right, you are worth the success, you are worth the effort, and you are worth the work so keep on trucking on, and you'll get to where you want to be. :)