Friday, October 13, 2017

Rock bottom - the only option is up

Rock Bottom indeed. 

Well it’s been awhile and I know I’ve repeatedly promised to be a better blogger and utterly failed. 

The thing is I totally lost my mojo. I’ve been dialing it in on the WW front for a long time, meetings failed 
to inspire me and it was general feeling of dénouement. Plus, a load of disappointment with myself as I’m still on this journey to lose weight. 

I didn’t give up though. After a particularly horrible meeting in July where we had a temp leader that lost the crowd and I felt the conversation got super judgy about what people consume during the Calgary Stampede. I kind of lost it. A woman was saying that when she sees people with their corn dogs and such she wants to run after them and tell them about Weightwatchers. Which prompted me to say –
you don’t know their story, maybe they look forward to this once a year, maybe it’s a tradition. We are not the jury nor the judge. 

After that meeting, I realized it’s been a long time since I enjoyed a meeting. Now to be fair we had a 
long run of subs as my regular leader is a meditation coach and has a lot of weekend seminars in the summer. The attendance was random as so many people are away during the summer and my attitude wasn’t fantastic either. 

In August I signed up for WW Online. Now I’ve tried online in the past for a whole year in fact and I didn’t do well. I wasn’t in to being accountable to myself. I thought let’s try it again as I really enjoy Connect on the app and felt that could be my new instant meeting. Well for 3 months I diligently weighed in every Saturday, tracking was still hit and miss. I found the scale going in the wrong direction. While I absolutely enjoy Connect it didn’t give me the same as the 
discussions in the meeting. 

 So, last Friday I switched back to WW meetings effective Saturday. I’ve always maintained a Facebook group for my meeting as people moved away or switched to online so I let them know on there. I was overwhelmed with the positive feedback from my WW peeps on there. They told me they still talked about me and my ͞words of wisdom͟ like never lie to your tracker. 

On Saturday I went and when I walked in I got a big hug from my leader and she asked me what she 
could do differently for me. I told her it’s not her it’s me and that I needed to do better. Then as people 
came in a few came to me to give me a hug and welcome me back. 

I’m so happy to back and part of my WW meeting family. 
For the past week, I’ve tracked EVERTHING diligently and I should see a loss too. I’m acting like I’ve never done WW before and it’s my first week. I tossed all the snacks that had accumulated in my desk. 

Started reading some books to work on areas I need to work on like: 
Eating Mindfully by Susan Albers 

No Sweat (How the Simple Science of Motivation Can Bring You a Lifetime of Fitness) by Michelle Segar 

The Power of Meaning by Emily Esfahani Smith 

It’s not uncommon for me to have a few books on the go. 

So I’m back, committed and excited to be back on this journey. 

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